Taking my wig for a wander

23rd June
Washed my hair this morning and there was more hair in the plug hole than normal!

When drying my hair it was falling out - here we go! I reckon I have a couple of weeks yet as I have thick hair so try not to worry about it and have a good night with the girls.

24th June
Was talking on the phone and put my fingers through my hair - a huge handful of hair came out and now I have a bald patch at the front.

I am distraught, how the hell can I go to work with a bald patch.

My husband phones me from work and says he is coming home as I can't stop crying, it's only been a couple of weeks since my first chemo and I am going to have to shave my head - it's just not fair.

I sit on the chair waiting for my husband to shave my head and he says 'you shave my head first'.

He said we could go bald together to which I replied 'you are not going out with me with no hair', and then we both laugh.

25th June
I did not sleep much last night or indeed at all. Can't decide which wig to wear, feeling very depressed - Finally the wig is on but I feel like a freak!

I walk into work very quietly trying to avoid people and run into my office and shut the door to look in the mirror to make sure the wig is on straight.

I eventually pluck up the courage to go and make a cup of tea, I hear a voice 'if it looks as good at the front as the back then it's gorgeous'.

It was my boss and at that comment made me calm down and realise yes it is a wig but it is just temporary.

My wig and I decide to stop feeling sorry for ourselves and go for a wander around the building to see if people notice but if they do they aren't showing it.